This is my opinion, and my opinion only. Chances are if you are terrified of a decision, whether it be venturing out on your own, moving, starting a new line of work, taking the next step in a relationship that means everything to you--it's your gut telling you there is a desire inside you that you haven't addressed yet. Where it will lead? Who knows? You will only discover it if you pursue it. If anything, the experience will definitely be worth the ride.